DECEMBER 9, 2007

I will never ever forget this date...

The first time I was robbed of anything- the worst thing is, it was my cellphone...

The first time I took something that is not mine just to compensate for my cellphone- a shirt...

The first time I saw a man end up under a jeepney just because the jeepney driver was speed driving and the victim was minding his own business...

The first time I waked miles just to reach home...

And another odd thing... I didn't cry at all... 

I just saw another side of life...

Who would have known???

Maybe the illness got into their heads???

My younger brother... was still burning with fever last monday...  and now, he wants to go to school... the idiot doesn't want to rest... I was so grumpy early in the morning because he doesn't listen to me... he never listens to me... he's never listened to me even once... I want to scream at him... real idiot...

And my eldest sister... she's still suffering from the pain of UTI... but she has to go to work because her students are having their final exam... but she has to clean the house before she leaves... and I told her I'd do everything... just like whenever she couldn't do it... but she kept insisting she do it because she said I can't... I felt useless...

I took care of him... but he doesn't listen to me... I did everything for her (even run to the urinalysis lab to the clinic and back)... but she thinks I couldn't do anything at all... Is that what people call unappreciative???

God... he's already left... I wish he heard me when I screamed for him not to ever come back anymore... I wish he heard how angry I was... I wanna say I hate him but I'm scared something I'll regret in the future might happen...

weird... so weird... I kept telling myself... No, no nursing for me... no nursing of sick people... if there's someone I want to take care of, it would be me, myself and I! I! I! I'll take care of myself but not anybody else... I'm so bad at taking care of people... I tend to panic, then got frustrated, angry, hopeless, and near death... I fear that I might end up worse than the patient... I'm really bad at this... shit...

But yeah... test of weaknesses and strengths... Two of the members of my family got sick... and it so happened that I was just at home, spending the first week of my semestral break... My eldest sister got herself a painful bout of UTI... while my youngest brother got tonsillitis... Being the only capable one inside the house, because my other sister's in her office, I got to run around the house, panicking, frustrating myself, collecting anger, feeling helpless, and nearly collapsing... This whole week really sucked for me...

It's probably because I have to pay the prize for going to three malls the week before and buying too much clothes...

Okay... I can now be considered a movie addict...

Movies I have watched within the last three weeks...

-ouija (this is a philippine horror movie that I hated so much because it didn't let me sleep for two weeks)
-simpsons movie
-rush hour three
-surf's up
-hairspray
-1408
-love story (another philippine movie that made me hate men, just watched it this afternoon)
-last legion
-harry potter 5
-transformers
-Rise
-Evan Almighty

Damn, I don't know why, but this isn't just making any sense... I love going to the cinemas.

Movies I'm waiting for:

-martian child
-disturbia
-wedding daze
-no reservations
-indiana jones (the latest one with Shia Labeouf in it)

Gaaahhh... there are more but I can't actually remember them all can I?

I LOVE SHIA LABEOUF!!!!!!!!

Okay, I'm done here...

Oh!!!!!!!! The HAPPINESS PV!!!!!!!! THanks to Tess of Vox... I was able to watch, and download too, the damn great PV... ARASHI WAS SO MUCH ON CRACK WHEN THEY MADE THIS... I bet they had fun while doing this... they sure know how to capture their fans... DORKY ARASHI STYLE...

So, I was wrong... I thought when I finally get a job a few years from now, I'll be able to survive with just mere professionalism... No, no, no... I have to learn how to deal with my temper and sarcasm... I have to make sure no one gets mad at me in the workplace...

But... but, if I'm already having problems now... my classmates aren't good friends... I'm scared of the future...

This week's ending soon... and I have a feeling... so is my life... yay me...

First off... I 'm currently in the middle of Coffee Prince, and determining if I'm really a girl or not. This is all Eun Eun Hye and the coffee princes' faults. Whenever I see Kim Dong Wook and Gong Yoo, I scream my head off (and this is worse than what I do when I see ARASHI)... But when I see Go Eun Chan (Eun Eun Hye's character in the series) I also scream my head off... okay, so I'm not gay... I just envy her for being around too many hot guys...

The second one, the one that would sure cause my death... I searched for my father... and I found him with no difficulty at all... You see, for almost thirteen years, I never saw my real father. I was mad at him because I thought he abandoned me and my brother for another woman. But when I got to talk to him, he told me that we were the ones who left him. It was never his sight that made me cry, it was the fact that all this time I was mad at him and he was suffering because he wanted to see us so badly. And the thing is, my family doesn't have any idea that I met him... and will see him again... when they find out, I'm dead meat... good thing they don't read my blog...

Okay, so last night, my best friend and I got to see each other again... And I finally asked her the question that's been nagging me since last week... How the heck did I get myself a boyfriend without even having the dumbest idea the next day!?!?

And what she answered was hilariously unbelievable... I didn't know I could be stupid when drunk... She told me the exact thing that happened- and she recorded the conversation between me and my 'boyfriend'... and I just have to share it or else I'll explode...

Okay, setting: outside Padi's point Marikina... that's a pub...
Time: Damn!!!! that was 12.00 in the morning!!! My best friend wouldn't stop talking how the situation kinda resembled cinderella (I had to scream to make her shut up you know...)
The guy: his name's Van... I don't want to post the whole name of that jerk...XD

Van: Ano... Kei-chan, Aishiteru, yo...
me:...
Van:Kei-chan, Daijoubou?
me:Jerk, are you playing those mean tricks of yours on me again?
Van:Eh?? No!!
me:Jerk, I'm never in my entire life ever going to believe in guys.
Van:...
me:what?
Van:Let me at least have an exception.
me:what's so important about you?
Van:...
me:...
Van:I'm acceptable when you're not drunk...
me:bullshit, what's that supposed to mean?
Van:We're both anime and dorama lovers...
me:EH? That's reason enough?
Van:I can prove to you I'm in clean conscience...
me:...
Van:Hmmm... JILL!!!! REMIND ME TO CONFESS TO HER AGAIN WHEN SHE'S SOBER!!!!
Jill:TOMORROW!!!! SHE BARELY GETS HANG OVER!!!!
Van: ARIGATOU!!!!
me:why are you shouting? Do you want me deaf by tomorrow?
Van:Oh sorry...
me:what the heck, I've liked you since we first met...
Van:Eh?
me:only that bitch, and many more, got in the way...
Van: oh...
me:I lost hope of us ever getting together...
Van:well, you have me now...
me:I wanna sleep, my head's already pounding...

When you read this, you'd probably wonder whre we were located and how the heck my best friend was able to record it PROPERLY... I was drunk so I have no more idea about those stuff... It was true that I've liked him since we met... and he's courted me before... but that was because he and my friends had a bet... Yeah, I looked so stupid the day I found out about that, I cried my eyes out and didn't talk to them for two years... good thing, my best friend wasn't part of it... And if I was sober enough, I would've had the proper bran to turn him down nastily, but he really chose to confess to a drunk, broken hearted girl... He's a big son of a bitch... and for the recording, they know that when I'm drunk, I don't remember anything, and that would be proof for me, but I never saw my best friend for two weeks so I wasn't able to ask her right away...

Oh well, at least now I know he's really in love with me this time... he's become loyal this past two weeks... I felt like I was given a slave for my birthday... And even though I told him he's going to be my slave until I make sure he's honest, he didn't protest... he said he's ready for it... and I still actually like him...

BUt take note of this... I'm still a bit off to the odd world about the whole thing... XD

Is it just me or the HP ootp staf f really stuck to the story this time...?

And yeah... there were picture spoilers of YAMADA TARO everywhere... And I die again and again every time I see them... But of course, it's still better to watch the series itself... And yes!!!! I will when my sister's done downloading her coffee prince episode...

Who said this is Shia Labeouf's year??? Yeah, I agree with him big time!!!! There was the transformers (so f***ing cool, yo!!!!) and then Disturbia... I'm gonna watch that shit no matter what... and then surf's up... my friend and I saw the trailer when we watched HP and we were so damn having neck pains in straining too much just to identify his voice... and when we did, we screamed!!!!!!!!! Inside the cinema!!!!!!!!!! That was a load of fun bull...

But some dumbass behind me was kicking my sit in the cinema... She came in late and wasn't able to watch the 'meet the robinsons' cinema notice... the one where the frogs sing about annoying dumbass watchers (ones with booming ringtones, long legs that kick the sits in front of them...yeah that's it)... I was watching HARRY POTTER, WHORE!!! AND NO ONE SHOULD EVER DISTURB ME WHEN I WATCH HARRY POTTER!!! I ended up shouting behind me, "who ever's kicking my sit will have her ass kicked after the movie!" and she stopped... that git of a socialite!!! Yeah, she was wearing miniskirt and backless t-shirt inside the cinema... so it wasn't a surprise to hear her complain about the air conditions...

But yeaterday was the best day... I love my highschool friends...

Is it just me or TRANSFORMERS really did something to me...

I'M ADDICTED TO IT!!!!

So many reasons, two hot guys, the story, the effects, the soundtrack, the cars, everything...

My sisters started hating me the night I came home from the cinema after I watched transformers with my high school friends. Because then, I had started blabbing away things about SHIA LABEOUF. I think he's hot, they think he looks stupid... that's because they know him as a comedian not an action star. HE'S SO DAMN HOT!!!

Turns out, HRM in trinity university of asia isn't that good. They have this very bad habit of taking care of the medical courses first. The nursing, psychology, and medical technology students are already halfway through their first semester while us HRM and tourism students are still looking for vacant rooms to use. To think they built a new building exclusively for HRM and tourism. Plus, they added 20% to their tuition fee.

My sister's right. TUA is a great school... for medical courses...

Hey, I'm posting this not because I want some kind of internet scandal out, I just want to vent my feelings out into something.

Oh my goodness!!!!!!!!!!!!! Tomorrow's the first day of school and I'm still stuck in front of the computer. Even after two months of not going out and just staring at Arashi and Teppei, I still can't get enough of them. And I have a feeling I still have something I need to finish before leaving this computer completely for the whole school year.

I was watching some Teppei clips in Veoh and I can't help but scream... that's it.

I'm really going to miss being an ARASHI fangirl now that thier actually in one (take note of that, this is just one of the millions they're going to have in the future and have had in the past) of their mountain peeks(what the heck happened to my spelling knowledge!!! Can't remember things correctly here, gomen...). Though I'm not like the other fans who would risk burning more than just some cash for the stormy boys, I still consider myself a big supportive fan because I make sure I'm updated every single minute. And I always envy those girls who could go to the concerts. And I watch their dramas.

I'll miss staring at their cute faces. But what I'll be doing is also for them. Just see this, if I don't give up my computer hours, I won't be able to study well (that's one of my many weaknesses) and if I don't study well, I won't graduate and I won't be able to get a good job. If I don't get a good job, I won't be able to finance those temptations disguised as albums, photobooks, singles, dramas, variety shows and concerts. So, yeah... I'm doing this for my planned all out ARASHI fandom.

I'll miss Nino... My Ninomiya Kazunari...

Yosh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! FIGHT-O Kei-chan!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I wasn't able to use the computer for four days straight and it felt like a million years to me. I felt like I've been outdated in lightning speed. This sucks.

And a Nino scandal was included in it...

I first saw it in tsinoy.com... where one of the neticens said she had finally read her vox post. It was about Nino getting so heartbroken or something. And of course, being a Nino fan, I immediately searched for it in vox. And all I found were other posts expressing their opinions aboutt the scandal. They kept pointing to arashi.vox but when i checked, I saw nothing. They said there were pictures but there was no single one. And it's annoying me big time.

I need help. At least let me read the article...

And I just wanna clear things up... I don't care about the boys' past, I'm just concerned because it was clearly said that Nino got "Brokenhearted".

Can anyone help me???

Just finished watching lovely complex movie... The first movie I watched that is japanese. It's so cool over all... The story line is great (imagine meeting a guy who's very similar to you and getting really close to him- like a best friend) the characters are great (the girl, I don't know her, is really cute in portraying the role and Teppei Koike is just plain cute) they are very hilarious...

In short, I would like to have that story played for my love life (WISHFULL THINKING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)

Really, when it comes to teenage romance, japanese is better than korean even though I really liked korean dramas so much...

LOVELY COMPLEX IS COOL!!!!!!!!!!

I was looking for the english name for gamo-gamo... and it frustrated me... can't find any...

For those non-filipinos, gamo-gamo is a kind of insect that really loves the light (not the sunlight, it's light from bulbs and flourescents). They usually mob the bulbs in quickly increasing quantities. When they start flying low, and they somehow touches your skin, it's annoying because they kind of prick and itch you at the same time. They're really annoying. But when I watched the way they mobbed the lights here in my bathroom, I kind of got this idea of them being monsters trying to kill my protagonist.

in short, WEIRD...

hehehehehehe...

For the past days, I've had nothing but confusion and worry in my head. The pension that dad promised us, the one I'm supposed to used for my tuition, still hadn't come. I'm worried that i might not be able to enroll this semester. I'm worried that all the plans I've made for my future will end up in trash. But I'm really confused because I don't want ot scare myself, but I can't find anything to excuse myself from it. I don't know what to do.

FORGET MY PROBLEM... I've been flailing around on my computer for days since I found out about Nino and Sho's new drama. And DAMN!!!!!! My baby got the lead role even if Sho fit the character more!!!!!!!!!! Not that I admit Sho looks better than my Nino, it's just that, if I weigh the fans, Sho has more than Nino- even though he's more experienced in acting and much better in front of the camera than anyone else in Arashi... AND I'M BEING BIASED AGAIN!!!!!!!!! When I keep telling myself I love arashi as a whole. Well, favoritism really is bad for the health.

But then again, ARASHI isn't very good for the health either.

Can anyone comment on this post? I just wanna know if I'm hitting too high up...

I've always wanted to write stories. I love writing, I express my feelings in writing. But this is my point... My friends tell me to start by writitng short stories and fanfictions. But When a big story pops into my mind, I start aiming for novel-like stories... even though I know I'm not yet that good and experienced...

Am I really hitting too high????

The damn avatar reminds me of the nights when Dalja's spring was still on air. I really loved the story. And it also made me like Min Ki.

I wanna go to ARASHI's summer concert!!!!!!!!!! Wow, I need to save money!!!!!!!!!!!!